The desire I had for healing and peace in my life was the impetus behind these radical self-realizations.  I felt that I was finally starting to figure this life out.  Then, life threw me a curveball just 2 weeks ago when the daycare where I had been working suddenly closed without warning.  Not only were we told that we didn’t need to come into work the next day, but we were also informed that we wouldn’t be receiving paychecks for the last two and a half weeks of work because the business had gone bankrupt.

This was a huge punch in the gut for me.  During the weeks leading up to the closure, I was finally feeling like life was settling a bit.  I had a stable job which I enjoyed (cuddling babies and working with some fantastic ladies).  Dustin had a good job, we were settling into our routine and schedule, money was consistently coming in…things were good!

When I went back to the nursery with my babies after we had the impromptu meeting in which we were informed that we’d be closing that night, I lost it.  Tears were flowing, anger was raging.  “Why is this happening?!  What am I supposed to do now?”  I cried out at God.  The financial worrier in me immediately started thinking about all of the expected income that I’d no longer be getting.  What were we going to do??  How were we going to pay rent?  What the fuck, Universe??!

I called Dustin who was (thankfully) off that day, and he came to spend the rest of the afternoon with me and my babies.  He was so calm and collected.  He held me while I cried and assured me that all will be ok.  We are always divinely taken care of.  “There’s a plan,” he kept telling me.  “Just wait patiently for it to be revealed.”

I went home that night in a daze.  My feeble human mind was still having a hard time comprehending what just happened.  Our friend, David, came over and listed to me rant, his hand comfortingly resting on my knee as I expressed my worries and fears of what was going on.  He owns a little shop, and told me he wanted me to work with him, so we spent the evening brainstorming ways he can bring in more money so that we can make that happen.  Dustin and I started talking about our music and the potential income it could bring if we finally started playing out.  I thought about all the craft projects I wanted to do but never had the time for.  I was able to shift my thinking and view this closed door as an open opportunity.

I decided that night that I wouldn’t stress about it anymore.  I couldn’t control what was happening, and I needed to just flow with it.  It’s the first time I’ve been able to truly feel peaceful despite my external circumstances.  I was able to stay truly joyful and not let this situation negatively affect all the other areas of my life.  I was genuinely happy and joyful during the following days even though I had no idea what I was going to do.  We already had a trip to Florida planned for that weekend, so I told myself I was going to go and enjoy myself, meditate on what I truly wanted to do in my life, and deal with it all when I got home.  I had faith that all things would work out, and that gave me much peace and joy.

On our way down to Florida (in fact, I think we had just crossed the border into Florida), I checked my email on my phone.  I had a message from Ron Layne, the dean of Developmental Studies at AB Tech.  He said he saw my application (I had just applied for a few positions a couple weeks before the daycare closed), and he was interested in me teaching a few courses for him!  He left a list of about 5-6 classes he still needed instructors for and said that if they fit into my schedule to let him know, and we’d schedule an interview.  Finally – an interview!!  I’d put in over a dozen applications in the last year and never a response other than an automated email saying they’d “decided to pursue other applicants at this time.”  I was beyond excited, almost shocked really.  And I was smiling ear-to-ear the rest of the way to the ocean.

Then, a few days later while we were still in Florida, I got a call from another developmental studies dean at Blue Ridge Community College!  Same thing – she had a couple classes that still needed instructors, and she wanted me to come in for an interview. !!!!!!!

So there I was, in Florida on vacation, wrapping my head around the idea that I would very likely be teaching fall classes.  Teaching college again!!  My dream!

I was so beyond grateful and finally saw the pieces of the puzzle coming together.  The Universe had bigger plans for me and wanted to give me what I truly desired.  (I just didn’t think it would do so as dramatically as closing down my daycare!)

When you’re able to keep your vibrations high (meaning staying in states of positive emotions like love, joy, and peace) even when things are hard, your life changes.  

Change your vibration, change your life.

And in a matter of two weeks, I did just that.