So I didn’t make it to the yoga class I penciled in for yesterday.  Or do all the errands that were on my list.  But it was cold and snowy…

There was a minute in the afternoon, right after the time for my yoga class passed, that I started to get down on myself.

“I knew I wouldn’t make it to that yoga class…”

“Why didn’t I just do all the errands this morning while I was already out and about?”

“Just another day of NOT doing all the things I said I was going to do…”

On and on my negative thoughts went until I finally shouted, “OUT!”.  Out with the negativity!

I may not have made it to the post office like I intended, but I got to do THIS yesterday morning.

Instead of doing all the things I said I was going to do, I cuddled on the couch with my pup for about a half hour (while it was snowing outside), did some laundry, and took care of a sickly water dragon.  Still productive, still a pretty good day.

My friend Brooke used to (and still does) tease me about my indecisiveness.  She’s known me since 5th grade, and she knows all my quirks and my crazies.  I’ve always been indecisive – taking the time to look at ALL the menu items before I can make a choice, staring for ten minutes at the three different shirts I picked out at a store knowing I can only get one, and when it comes to picking a place to eat, just forget about it – let someone else pick. 😉

Since I have this freer schedule, I have a lot of spare time on my hands.  That’s a great thing, but also a tough thing.  Because instead of having set times where things have to get done, I get to CHOOSE when I’m going to do certain things and when I’m going to do others.  Therefore, due to my indecisive nature, I end up sitting at my desk contemplating what I should do for a half hour, which normally turns into browsing the internet and procrastinating since I “just don’t know what I want to do.”

Having a free, open schedule is great, but it requires discipline in order to still get done all that needs to get done.  And I’m still working on that discipline.

But like I said the other day: Today is a new day and a new beginning!

I already have plans to get done the things I meant to get done yesterday, while throwing in a few other errands/shop and friend visiting along the way.  It’s windy and cold outside, but at least the sun is shining!!  Time to get cozy and cute and kick this day’s ass!! Yeah!! (hehe)

If you’re carrying around a lot of regret and guilt, if you’re constantly feeling like you aren’t enough – can never do enough or be enough, I encourage you to take a minutes, breathe, and repeat this affirmation:

“I release all guilt and shame and thoughts of inadequacy.  I know that I am perfect, right where I am and right as I am.  Nothing in the universe can change that.”

To sunshine and errands! (and of course – as always – LOVE)

~Kim~